Promenade
In “Promenade,” this issue’s ekphrasis, Jameson Fitzpatrick responds to one of Chris Antemann’s porcelain sculptures, Boudoir (2011), in a poem that meditates—tenderly, wittily—on the ambiguities of misaligned desires, gender, time, beginnings, endings, and things that might have been—all of which may become (though they need not become) problems of aesthetics.
—Rebecca Ariel Porte
Promenade
Right now I need to feel the weakness of all temporal things
down to the beauty
of my present
admirer
who is not my suitor quite
for it is my verse, not my beauty
he praises
by the river
where we walk and sit and talk
the tired subjects.
The passing of time,
wished-for futures, et cetera.
It is the second day of spring
and so am I thinking of another, further ending.
Not that one.
I never was the kind of young man he is.
Strapping, a word and quality
that has always made me
see myself tied up.
I would let him
I think, not
I would like him to.
My desire is so phrased. Meekly.
Unlike his expansive eyebrows,
nearly contiguous
with his hairline
and one another.
I liken them to a memory.
I liken him down
to a memory of useless ardor.
As poets do.
In a later mirror I’ll note a line
the sun has burned
where I parted my hair
in the center
in the hope of looking younger,
and prettier.
Oh, vanity! To remember that
tall as he was,
he would have watched it pinken.
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